nice guys finish last

Last night was stephys bday celebration, and it was wonderful. A little too crowded for us, but it was a friday, and we were in a very popular area. But it made me wonder when people stopped treating others with respect- treating them like a person. I consider it being rude, but maybe I'm looking at it from an American perspective. Maybe its because Natasha got a drink spilled on her by a guy who didnt even care and acted like it was her fault. Or because some guy clocked me in the head and didnt even say sorry or see if i was fine. Or because we all had to fight our way through numerous crowds of fuckin drunk ass girls who dont know how to walk straight. But stephy got a rose from a nice boy, so thats promising =) This city is just hugely populated, and when u add alcohol to the mix, manners fly out of the window. Its just to me, one of the best qualities in a person is goodness, and being nice, and just an overall respect for them. So when i see this not happening, i get very let down on how the world works.

I guess i just miss feeling comfortable and at ease and not like an outcast and a gypsy. But you cant be in a comfort zone all the time, you have to do things that scare you. Everyday here is a learning process, and the more I learn, the less i know. But i'm Happy i'm in it all the same. Hope everyone has a wonderful Saturday <3