nice guys finish last

Last night was stephys bday celebration, and it was wonderful. A little too crowded for us, but it was a friday, and we were in a very popular area. But it made me wonder when people stopped treating others with respect- treating them like a person. I consider it being rude, but maybe I'm looking at it from an American perspective. Maybe its because Natasha got a drink spilled on her by a guy who didnt even care and acted like it was her fault. Or because some guy clocked me in the head and didnt even say sorry or see if i was fine. Or because we all had to fight our way through numerous crowds of fuckin drunk ass girls who dont know how to walk straight. But stephy got a rose from a nice boy, so thats promising =) This city is just hugely populated, and when u add alcohol to the mix, manners fly out of the window. Its just to me, one of the best qualities in a person is goodness, and being nice, and just an overall respect for them. So when i see this not happening, i get very let down on how the world works.

I guess i just miss feeling comfortable and at ease and not like an outcast and a gypsy. But you cant be in a comfort zone all the time, you have to do things that scare you. Everyday here is a learning process, and the more I learn, the less i know. But i'm Happy i'm in it all the same. Hope everyone has a wonderful Saturday <3

Virgin

Today: Obama just won the Nobel peace prize- i know a lot of people are upset about this, and while I understand their reasons, I don't wish that this honor wasn't given to him. I find it amazing and I am honored his is our president. I look up to him in so many ways, he is a truly amazing man that I hope children aspire to be like...I know I do. He reminds me everyday that impossible is nothing.

Oh god. my first " blog". i dont like that word. i feel like a nerd. well i am a nerd, so i guess it fits. Well, i tend to be gravely against all new trends, and then i slowly give into them. i first thought uggs were the ugliest things in the world, and i thought myspace should die. I love my uggs now- although they are sitting in my closet in california b/c my luggage was already overstuffed. i recently deleted my myspace but i loved it for awhile there. So, im giving in to this online journal thing ( atleast im bypassing twitter right?). Well, i have good reasoning.

On september 20th, i packed up everything and jetted over to London to live and study for a year..it wasnt quite that simple, i did spend a year planning it. but lets leave it at that. Its been 19 days and I think i have learned more about life, and about myself, and about the world that i ever have. Crazy right? I see things differently now, my eyes are popping out of my head, and i decided that this feeling is something I dont want to soon forget. Also, for everyone back in America, I figured i would shed light on my Lost in Translation period of time.

While i do still have little moments of freaking out- mostly the fear that something will happen back home, and i wont be there...I am enternally very happy, even though the sky is dark grey outside and rain is imminent. This could be the most amazing city on the earth, i dont know, considering this is my first exit from America. ( I dont count Canada..should I ? lol) It literally has everything you can dream of- except a beach, but i was never really a beach person ( you know this as I am ghostly pale). I am intrigued by this city, and I want to know every little crumble of it. I keep forgetting i have a year of time to do this. I am very lucky, to say the least, and entirely grateful to my father for saving money since I was a little girl for college, and for the US gov/financial aid system- although after my grace period, I will be cursing your name. The pound/dollar translation SUCKS, and im hoping things will get better..but until then my money is just getting eaten away..buts its all worthy. I havent been too tight with it, so i need to work on that. This isnt meant to be a novel, so im goin stop here for today. thats enough to take in. Have a beautiful Friday<3